Fantasia - "You can't accidentally take a whole bottle of pills."

Fantasia is finally speaking out about her suicide attempt and expels all rumors that it was accident.

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"I didn't have any fight in me. I didn't care about anything. I just wanted out. At that moment, I wanted out. I wanted it to be over with – all of it, all of that [expletive]."

"I just sat in the closet and looked at the mirror and took all the pills in the bottle. I wanted to go to sleep and just be at peace. I knew exactly what I was doing. You can't accidentally take a whole bottle of pills."

"I was tired of people doing me wrong, constantly, over and over again, dealing with my family – my father, dealing with men and their [expletive] – I was tired. "My head was hurting me. I was over it."

Fantasia's manager, Brian, tells about finding Fantasia on her bedroom floor.

"Her emotions were extremely low. She'd been crying all day. Fantasia was just numb. Fantasia texted me, saying 'I love you.' I wrote back, 'I love you more.' Then it hit me."

"I wrote, 'You better not do anything or think about doing anything stupid.' And I left it at that. About 10 minutes later, Fantasia texted me back, and she said, 'Already did.' I went into Fantasia's room and saw her on the floor, and my heart just dropped."

 And Fantasia finally speaks on her relationship with Antwaun Cook.

"When I met him, he was separated ... wasn't living in his home. He didn't want to be back with his wife – that is what I was told," Barrino says. "I remember waking up in the hospital [and thinking], 'It didn't work, I'm still here in this hellhole. Still here with all this drama going on.' "

"My nurse Melanie was a blessing into my life because she didn't tell me what I wanted to hear," she says. "She told me what I needed to hear. And she looked at me and said, 'You gotta get up, and you've gotta get out of here, 'cause you haven't fulfilled your destiny.' "

"I realized how people end up in the grave. Because that one moment [snaps her fingers] of just breaking or feeling like I can't, I can't go on, it's too heavy. That was somewhere I don't ever want to go again."

 Wow! All of this is in preparation for her "Behind the Music," airing tomorrow, August 24, 2010. I hope Fantasia takes the time she needs to get herself together. She is currently right back at it filming her reality show, "Fantasia For Real," and her new album drops tomorrow. I have been a huge fan of Fantasia since her Idol days. In fact, she is the only Idol I have ever voting for. This whole situation saddens me! I will be praying for her.